The Webmistress
My real name is Evelien and I am 14 years old (born the 7th of August 1986).
I live in The Netherlands together with my parents, my two little sisters and my two cats.
I am in my 3rd year of High School, and few of my hobbies are reading, skating, and writing but my biggest hobby ever is -of course- MICHAELING!!! (like you couldn't guess)
That includes listening to Michael's music, watching his videos, reading about him, buying MJ stuff, collecting MJ stuff, talking about him, surfing the internet for MJ, drawing MJ.. and so on. Just everything that has anything to do with Michael :)

It is hard to put into words what I feel for Michael. It's something very strange and I don't think I can explain it, not even with a million words, but I will try to for as far as I can. I know that you will understand it if you're a fan too :)

~MAGIC~
"He can do it, and you can't help looking at him", Katharine Hepburn has once said about Michael Jackson. It's my point exactly.
I can remember that I was very little, maybe five or six years old, and I was watching tv in our livingroom. Then, something happened that I felt was the most beautiful thing in the world. A man appeared on my tv-screen, and he did something that made me stop breathing for a moment. It was as if my eyes were locked to the screen, all I could do was watching that man doing his thing.
I had never heard of the name Michael Jackson before, so I had no idea who this amazing and fascinating man could be. Time would learn.
Ever since, when I saw Michael on tv again, whether as a little boy dancing and singing with such incredible energy, or as a grown man, dancing and singing with such amazing force, I would forget about anything else and just stare at him, experiencing the magic.

Later on, I would find out that the magician's name is Michael Jackson. I would find a tape with his music, and I would fall desperately in love with the man and his arts.
And, I mean, the man's been going for 38 years! He started when he was just five years old, and 'simply' went on till today, at the age of 42. Because of that, there is so much to watch and so much to listen to. He's done SO much. If I want to hear soul and blues, I listen to the Jackson Five. If I want disco, I listen to the Jacksons or the Off The Wall album. If I want pop, rock, gospel, R-n-B or even some classical music, I can have it all. And it is all magical...

I still feel that same magic that I felt the first time, everytime I hear Michael sing or when I see him dance. But it's not just that anymore. I found out who this man really is. I am now in love with his personality as well, and I can't help it. And I wouldn't help it, even if I could :-)

I love it all, from the first notes Michael sung when he was just a little boy, 5, 6, 7 years old, to the man he is now, a man who has already left his legacy of brilliant music and enlightened hearts. I deeply respect Michael for everything he's done and is still doing. Especially when it comes to charity. Michael has taught me some very important things. With listening to songs such as Heal The World, Man In The Mirror and Earth Song, I realise that we should notice that nature and children are the most precious things on this Earth, and we should protect it. At a seminar from Michael's Heal The Kids Initiative, Michael said: "Who among us would have believed that the sound of children at their playgrounds would be replaced by the sound of machine gun fire at our schools, that the sound of little girls skipping rope would be overshadowed by the frantic shrills of children dodging bullets? Yet, instead of loving our children more, we installed metal detectors in our school." Michael has once said: "To help others isn't charity, it's our duty" and I think he is so right with that. It makes my heart leap with joy to think of what Michael has done for children all over the world. It's something that many people don't realize, that Michael is a true humanitarian, and that he spends so much of his money and time to give terminally sick, poor, or even dying children a happy time.

It breaks my heart when I read all those stories about Michael which aren't true at all, and it makes me even more sad when people actually believe those stories. I just wish that people will learn to see Michael as the man he really is, and not as some kind of weirdo as how the tabloid press have 'created' him. He deserves respect.

"If you have grown up in front of 100 million people, since the age of five, like I did, you're automatically different", Michael has said. It makes me sad to know that Michael has never had a childhood, he always had to perform, to record or to rehearse. He never had any friends of his age, his brothers were his friends. He slept in one hotel room after another. The only people he saw were the millions of people attending his concerts. Michael has recalled, that he had to cry everyday because he couldn't be like any other child, that he had to work instead of having the opportunity to play and have fun, that he has never known freedom. I feel sad to think of this, and it's so strange to think that the little boy you hear singing his heart out with that beautiful voice, is actually very sad. To think that that kid, dancing with incredible energy and passion, is very lonely.

When Michael was older, the world still didn't seem to understand him. They thought he was weird and bizarre, also because he cares about children so much, and has children as his friends. "It's been my fate to compensate for the childhood I've never known... Before you judge me, try hard to love me, the painful youth I've had..." Michael sings in his song Childhood. Why can't people understand that Michael likes to be surrounded by children and to do childlike things, because that's what he has missed all those lonely years when he was little?

Michael has also made me curious about several other things, like Arts and HIStory. Thanks to him, I started reading about people like Ghandi, Martin Luther King, John F Kennedy, Mother Theresa, Deepak Chopra, Mandela and many others. He made me discover Michelangelo and his genius artwork, I am now a true Michelangelo fan, I love all his art. I am also very interested in Judaism and ancient cultures, I try to read as much as possible about that. When Michael speaks about such things, I become interested and I then want to learn about it. I am on my way to becoming a real intellectual, hehe:-)

Now I am living with Michael's music 24/7, and I am enjoying that very well :) There is no other music that I like, than Michael's. Well, maybe some old Motown music... Sweet Soul Music :) I do like James Brown, Jackie Wilson, the Supremes, Smokey Robinson and the Temptations, and some of the Beatles too. I think Elton John rocks. And I sometimes like to listen to classical music, mostly Tchaikovsky (spelling??). And of course I think that Carmina Burana-O Fortuna from Carl Orff is great, I just love that composition. I always play it REAL loud, then it sounds the best :) Oh and Pictures At An Exhibition by Mussorgsky, I love that. Especially the part "Great Gates Of Kiev".
But the only thing I REALLY listen to is Michael. I couldn't imagine a day without his music, because I simply wake up with it and fall asleep with it. I have been listening to it since I first found out who Michael Jackson is, and I never stopped listening ever since :-)

And still today, it is Michael's magic that has me captured. I breath his music and take his message with me. I wish that people will finally understand how great he is, and not go on with judging him over and over again, when they don't know him at all. After all, "Prejudice is ignorance" and people should never judge others before trying to understand them.
"People think they know me, but they don't. Not really. Actually, I am one of the loneliest people on this Earth. I cry sometimes, because it hurts. It does. To be honest, I guess you could say that it hurts to be me." is what Michael has said.

All I wish for Michael is that he will be happy and left alone by the filthy tabloid press and the people who are judging him. I want him to be able to smile all day long and to live a happy life together with his two adorable children, and most of all, to be understood and respected.

Well I think this is enough for now [I can hear from overhere that you're relieved ;-)]
It's time to check out my cool MJ page!
"Get the point? Good, let's dance" :-)

On my site you can find MJ quizzes, links, a Picture Gallery and there will be much more in the near future! So keep comin' back :)

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